To the 14 year old who haven`t have a boyfriend. There`s so many reason as to why you don`t have a boyfriend and all of them must be good. Sometimes boys don`t tell you what they think of you because they might find you intimidating. Maybe your smile is really cute, you have deep eyes, you`re very smart or funny, or just the way you potray yourself to the people. maybe you`re a bit reserve or shy, but its better that way. trust me. would you rather be the girl who has never had a kiss, but everybody knows she is just taking care of herself or the girl who had 8 boyfriends by the time she is 16 just because she likes breaking hearts or causing drama? One day, a guy will be brave enough to tell you that you`re perfect even with your flaws and he will take care of you and respect you. Please don`t be the girl who is going to date the 1st guy that ask her on a date. know that you are wanted, why else would you be this beautiful creature on this world? You`re here to make a difference not to reach some guideline set up by society. You are wanted, beautiful, strong, and intelliegent; don`t let anybody else make you think otherwise.
Pluse its much funner when you`re friends with a guy, but i mean like actually friends, not a flirty slut. I`m sorry if i offended anybody.
This is for everybody who thinks they are less then anybody else.
STAY GOLD!

When I was 7, my dad was diagnosed with Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma and was sent away to Vancouver. I saw him twice before he died in November 2009 (I was 9 by that time) and then my mother disappeared. She hid in her room for the next 2 years on anti-depressants and didn’t allow any of us to grieve properly; I had to step in and be the mother of my siblings. Then she met someone else and moved him into our house without us getting to know him very well. That was the same year I found my baby book and found out that my dad was actually my step-dad. I still don’t know who my real dad is. When I turned 13 I started cutting myself to get attention from my peers and by 9th grade I was addicted to it. While I was in the 9th grade I was cheated on by a boyfriend of a few months and I began overdosing to help myself from feeling the hurt - I took between 25-40 pills a day for a month. I’m 17 now and I feel similar to a heroin addict; I tense up and shake when I want to cut and I hide alcohol in my room so if I feel like crying I can drink it away. I’ve put myself into (notverygood) counselling for my self harm, depression, EDNOS and whatever else I need a good psychiatrist to figure out and the only good thing about it has been that I have someone to talk to every week. Everything’s shit right now and I have to act like everything’s super but really I just want to have a breakdown every second of the day; I’m not sure how I’m going to continue my life.

-Paige 

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Okay so my life story.. Growing up I knew my older sister was different. She had depression I just never knew how bad till I got old and could really understand what it meant to be depressed. Last year my sister cut deep really really deep the first time she’s cut that I know of. I’m scared for her sometimes because I know certain things can trigger it. Her scars are really nasty but they remind me never to cut. If I ever want to I think of her. She’s also gay which I found out on my birthday last year. Her girlfriend is so sweet but I’m afraid if they ever break up who knows what my sister might do. She also has borderline which no one has really explained to me other then it makes her emotions stronger. Another thing is cancer it’s in my family. My great aunt had breast cancer so did my grandma and my mom. Because of my moms cancer my little sister has anxiety. It’s gotten better over the years but its still pretty bad. My grandpa had cancer also he died from his so did my cousin who was three years old when he died. It was hard on my whole family. Also my brother isn’t my brother he is actually my cousin. My aunt got into drugs and got to the point where she got caught and couldn’t take care of my him anymore. She also has another son who she lost to my grandma. And then there’s me wanting everything to be okay I’m afraid to tell people I’m not happy. My life is just a big mess. I like this kid but I’m not sure if I can date him again. I got hurt last time and I’m not sure if I’m ready. Then I’m always worrying about my best guy friend because he says he freaks out when he hears sirens because his dads the police chief. He also likes my best girl friend. But he’s not allowed to date yet. I found out a girl I’m close to cuts and I’m not sure how to help her because idk if she will listen to me. I’m one of those people that want everyone to be happy even if it means they aren’t. I’m not happy anymore. I don’t know what to do. I thought about suicide last night.. But I decided against it because I don’t want people to worry or for them to think it was their fault because they didn’t listen when I needed it. I don’t want to stress people out so I keep everything bottled up inside but I’m waiting, waiting for the day when it all comes out.

I’m Linn & I’m currently 13 years old. (:

I live in this world just like the rest of you, & I’m not to fond of it. I live with my brother, mother, and father. We have two cats and one dog whom I love very much. <3

I have never officially been diagnosed with depression, but I used to consider myself depressed. I also like to consider that I have beaten depression. I found my answers all through music and words.

At a concert presented by TWLOHA, I beat depression. It’s quite amazing actually. I absolutely love music, and my brother, father, and I went to see a band(Now, Now) in concert there. I didn’t know much about the concert, but I am a big fan of Now, Now and Will Anderson from Parachute.

We went to the concert, and before the bands began to do their thing, they had this video play. It talked about how TWLOHA was a non-profit organization and that this concert was simply to get you moving and happy.

The first band, Satellite, came out and started to play. I payed close attention to the lyrics of the songs, and I instantly fell in love with this band.

There was a short intermission, I guess you could call it, after Satellite played. They changed up the stage a little, and a founder of TWLOHA was talking to the crowd. I don’t remember what he was talking about, but every word slightly changed me.

Now, Now began to play after the man was done talking. My brother was in love with Now, Now, and I later became a fan of the band as well(We actually only went to see this band).

I enjoyed the music they played, and the next “intermission” began to start. A different guy, I think another founder, began to talk. He talked mainly about his life and that you aren’t alone. There was a phrase he said that changed my life. “I knew what it was life to wear shame on my own wrists,” he said(I’m not sure what exactly he said, but it was something similar to that).

I am personally a self-harmer, but I am trying to quit. That sentence changed my life forever. I promised myself never again would I ever self-harm that moment.

The man then finished talking, and he introduced Will Anderson to the stage. Will Anderson was personally my favorite of the whole night. I absolutely love him, & I knew him way before Now, Now.

It was amazing to see him perform live on stage. He played one or two songs that I didn’t know, but the rest I knew. All of them were my favorite songs, and I yearn to see Will again. <3

Another “intermission” began, and a different guy began to recite poems he had wrote himself. He read us two of his poems, one about his wife and the another I don’t remember what about. He is an absolutely talented writer, and I admire him.

He introduced onto the stage, Anthony Raneri from Bayside. Anthony was absolutely amazing, and I also fell in love with his music.

The next “intermission” was the same guy that gave the first “intermission.” He just tried to make the crowd laugh, and then he began to talk about how this whole organization began.

TWLOHA started as an organization making slight profits. These guys, including the one telling the story, had met this girl. She was depressed, suicidal, and they had found out over the past 5 or 6 days that she had attempted suicide more than once.

She told them her story, and the guy telling the story had written her story(it was about one or two pages long) down. He titled the story “To Write Love On Her Arms.” This was just the beginning.

They made a page on Myspace about this organization, and they started to sell t-shirts to where the money would go to treatment for the girl. More and more people started to find out about this page.

One day, the guy telling the story was backstage at a concert to where he would sell the shirts. His friend was a musician and was about to go on stage when he asked him if he would wear one of the shirts. He told him it was fine, and the man went on stage in the shirt. He told them a little bit about the shirts, and how they were being sold at the merchandise table.

After that day, the project grew and grew. At first it was just people inside the Florida area, but then it grew to more places around the US. Then to people all around the world.

More and more people started to buy the shirts and items. They then used to profits to all sorts of things. They gave the money to people who needed the money for recovering, and not just the girl they had gathered the money for.

The project grew and grew to where it is today.

The man wrapped up his story and introduced Jon Foreman to the stage. Jon let Anthony Raneri tag along for the first song. They finished the song, and Anthony left the stage.

Jon began his own act and sung about 3 songs, then introduced the members of his band, Fiction Family. They played, and they were amazing. I enjoyed every second of their time playing.

As they left the stage, people began chanting for another song. Fiction Family then came back on stage and announced that to wrap up the show, they would welcome everyone else back on stage.

All the other acts came on stage(except Jess Abbott from Now, Now to which I was very disappointed about). They sang a cover of David Bowie song of which I don’t recall the name of. They wrapped up the show with that song, and the cover was absolutely extravagant.

We left the stage, and my brother and I went out to the merchandise table. I bought a TWLOHA shirt, as did my brother who bought something else. We then went out to meet some of the people who performed.

We first met Will Anderson, and I got an autograph followed by a picture with him. I told him I was a huge fan of his, and I wanted to tell him that he changed my life tonight, but I didn’t want my dad to get suspicious.

We then met Now, Now who I have met before back in November 2012. My brother and I got a picture with them, and my dad got one separate.

My dad, brother, and I then left to our car(by the way, we got free parking!). I went home one of the happiest girls alive. I knew in that moment I had beaten depression. Depression could not win over me.

I’m the girl that beat depression through music.

(It’s funny because all that ^^^ happened yesterday, 2/16/13 <3)

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All that is, is a vaginal discharge. You release it whenever you make out with your boyfriend as it’s preparng yourself for sex. This does not mean that you are emotionally ready for it. Also, the vagina is a self cleanign organ. So for all you young ones, if you found a gooey substance in your underwear after being with your boyfriend or whatever, there’s no need to worry about it. :)